A Month in Your Hands

My wonderful Mistress,

It still amazes me when I think back to a year ago as we began this path we are on to my complete submission to you. Over the last year I have learned to be your cumslut. I have eaten cum from a glass, sucked it off a dildo, poured it out of a condom, squirted it straight into my mouth, and sucked and licked it from your beautiful pussy. I still hate the taste, but know that that is the way it has to be.

For my month in your complete control, I want you to make me eat lots and lots of cum. Make me your super cumslut. Make me show you what you have made me. Freeze it, refrigerate it, make me pour it on my food, in my coffee, or all over your favorite dildo. Or simply save up a large amount of it and make me guzzle every last drop when there is a sufficient enough amount to make me really taste every last drop. This is what I will do in the next month in your hands.

If you so desire, make me also wear your cage every day, releasing me only to tease me but then promptly caging me again. Make me earn every release with a massage and a promise to be your cumslut.

Plug me, fuck me, use me. I am your cumslut, but also your pet. Use me in whatever way turns you on. I live for your excitement and could cum just from hearing you orgasm. Be as shameless as you want. I am yours.

Humiliate me, humiliate me, humiliate me. I know this is your favorite role and hence I want to show you that I can do whatever you want to make you happy. Let me show you I know my role. Let me be your cumslut, sissy, fuck toy. I am in your hands!

The next month will be difficult for me and hopefully pure enjoyment for you. I am in your hands my gorgeous Mistress!

your pet

My Begging Begins

My wonderful Mistress,

As I sit here in my panties I realize just how much ofa slut I truly am. I am your cumslut, willing to cum on my face, worship your cock, dress like a sissy, humiliate myself in public, and have my ass filled with whatever you desire just to please you, hoping that it will be enough for you to allow my release.I

know that I don't deserve release and that I have to earn it. I know that I don't deserve to cum inside you and that the more humiliating my orgasm is, the more you enjoy it. I know that I am there for your pleasure and as such, only deserve to cum in humiliating ways. So tonight, please let me show you what I havel earned. Allow me to demonstrate for you the slut you have made me.

Please Mistress, I beg you to lock me in my cage this evening. Lock me tight and make me wear pantyhose over my sissy cock. Make me earn the right to be unlocked and allowed to cum. Please, please lock me up tonight and hopefully I will earn my release. After I am locked, please let me insert the purple plug in my sissy ass. Let me feel what it's like to be filled with your cock. Let me feel what it's like to be your sissy bitch. In fact, let me wear my red bra to show you just how sissy I am. I beg you to let me prove my sissiness to you. I am yours!

Once I am properly locked, plugged, and feminized Iwill provide you with a complete full-body massage. Let me earn my right to be unlocked. Let me rub your body while my sissy cock strains for release within my cage. Once your massage is complete, I will further begin to beg. Please make me earn it Mistress. Pleaes make me your cumslut. I can't wait to see you.

your pet

Locked and Degraded

This post is a little out of order as the events below happened before my most humiliating orgasm post. Due to a very heavy work schedule, only now am I able to post about my first experience being truly locked. The following took place a week ago...

Since my wife had me purchase the Gates of Hell this past summer I often thought that it would be fun for us to play with chastity with a device that could be locked like the cb6000. In fact, I often wondered how my wife would use such a device if we owned one.

Well, I no longer need to wonder. When Akasha's new training program started a few weeks ago, my wife told me that I would need to buy only one toy for this training program; a cb6000. As she told me this, my clittie got immediately hard as I imagined my wife teasing me for long periods with my clittie locked in the cage. At the same time I was extremely anxious. What if this device really worked? What if I could no longer get an erection or even be able to masturbate? What if my wife liked it so much that it became a part of her normal control over me? To say I was nervous would be an understatement.

My wife ordered the cb6000 on the second day of Akasha's training and it arrived 2 days later. I could tell she was excited as she called me at work to tell me that her package had arrived. When I got home, the box was already opened indicating to me that my wife couldn't wait to see it. She seemed to have a little more bounce in her step and a grin that was a mile wide.

When we went to bed that evening, my wife immediately pulled out the cb6000 to show me all the parts and bring them to my clittie to see how they would fit. My clittie was rock hard as she put the first ring around it. From there it was clearly impossible for her to place the remaining components on my clittie without me first losing my erection. My wife realized that and decided to put it away for now. Once away, she turned her attention back to my clittie and proceeded to bring me to the edge several times before turning over and saying goodnight, leaving me with an aching hardon.

This nightly teasing continued for two more nights. As I prepared to leave for work on the day before Thanksgiving, planning to return home around noon, to drive out of town for the weekend with my wife, my wife ran upstairs to retrieve something from the bedroom. She soon returned with a huge smile and the black cb6000 case. She simply said, "bring this to work with you today." She kissed me and rubbed my clittie through my slacks before wishing me a good day. On my drive to work I could think of nothing but the cb6000 in my coat pocket. What did my wife intend to make me do? Would I have to put it on a work? Did she leave me the key? Would she make me leave the nice case on my desk for all to potentially see? I was nervous!

At around 11:30am I called my wife to tell her that I was running a little late, but would be home in about 45 minutes. Her response? She simply said, "I don't think so. Go read your email. You have a few things to do before returning home." With that she said goodbye and hung up the phone.

I immediately looked at my email and saw the subject line "tasks" in a new email from my wife. I opened the email and read the following, "Since you've given me quite the laundry list to accomplish before we leave for the weekend, I'm throwing in some honey-do's for you too. Please complete these before returning home:

1. purchase new pantyhose and baby oil (at the same store)
2. bring your cage and the baby oil into a restroom
3. pull down your control top pantyhose and panties and make yourself cum - make it a good one (using the baby oil if need be)
4. put on the cage and lock it up
5. call me as soon as the tasks are completed.

With Love,
your mistress"

My clittie was so hard when I finished reading the email. I don't know if it was because she was going to let me cum or because I would finally be locked. Needless to say, I raced to finish my work so that I could go to the store to complete her tasks.

When I arrived at the drug store, I was a little concerned about what people would think with me purchasing large pantyhose (a size that could fit me) and baby oil. I decided it would be best to find the pantyhose first and then find the baby oil as it would be more humiliating to sit in front of all the pantyhose offerings trying to figure out which ones would fit me while holding a bottle of baby oil. Thankfully, there were no other women in the pantyhose aisle and I eventually found what I was looking for. My heart was racing due to the combination of humiliation and desire to cum. I quickly purchased the two items from an older woman and headed to the restroom.

I entered the restroom and found a large stall and began to remove my clothes. I pulled my control top panyhose and lace hiphugger panties down to my thighs and pulled out the baby oil. I squirted some baby oil into my hands and began to rub my clittie. It wasn't long before I was ready to cum. Since my wife told me to "make it a good one," I teased myself a little more before shooting a ton of cum into my hand. My orgasm was tremendous with cum pouring out of my hand onto the floor. Since I was standing, I was also quite light-headed from the amazing release due to the pent up teasing I had endured over the previous 3 days. As my clittie began to soften, I wiped the cum from my hands and attempted to clean the big puddle from the floor before someone else came into the restroom (thankfully my wife did not require me to eat my cum!) Once my hands and clittie were reasonably clean, I applied some more baby oil to my clittie and began to put the cb6000 on. It was more difficult than I imagined as my excitement and nervousness about this device was already making my clittie hard again! Unbelievable!

I finally got all the pieces on and ran the hoop of the lock through the locking mechanism. There was only one more thing to do, click the lock in place. I stopped for a moment. The lock was truly intimidating. It is a black master lock that it clearly built well. This wasn't one of those dainty locks that could be pulled open with ease and then relocked without anyone knowing. Once locked, this lock would remain locked until my wife produced the key and unlocked it herself. As this realization sunk in, my clittie began to harden in the cage. Soon, my clittie had pushed its way to the end of the tube. I clicked the lock shut as I felt the first sensations of the device restricting my erection.

I called my wife on the way home to inform her that I was locked. She seemed happy, but didn't say much more. Once I was home, my wife came upstairs to check on me as I packed my bag for the weekend. She reached down and grabbed my clittie. I asked her if she wanted to see it and she said she did. I pulled down my pants, pantyhose and panties to reveal my locked clittie to her with my balls completely exposed. A huge smile appeared on her face. I knew at that point that I was in trouble!

As we exited the garage, I asked my wife if she had brought the key with her explaining that I didn't know what to expect with the device was concerned about health. To my surprise she had not planned to bring the key! It was at that point that I realized the seriousness of my predicament. My wife had no intention of unlocking me any time soon! Thankfully, she did decide to bring the key, but made sure to keep it away from me throughout the weekend.

My erection eventually subsided on our trip and I managed to get used to the cage. My wife would periodically say something kinky to me that would immediately cause my clittie to get hard causing me to feels the squeezing effects of the device on my clit. She seemed to thoroughly enjoy my torment.

That night in bed, wife played with my very exposed balls ensuring that I was thoroughly teased before rolling over to go to sleep. My clittie was hard and trying its best to push the cage off. After my wife fell asleep, my clittie softened enough to enable me to fall asleep. I awoke several times that night to find my clittie straining in its cage. Would every night be like this? I was torn between my desire to reach down and rub my clittie and the desire to stop the squeezing on my it. It was a this point that I realized that even if I wanted to masturbate, even just a little, that the device would not allow it. That's when my predicament really began to sink in.

The next morning, I applied some more baby oil to my clittie between the open slats in the cage. The oil allowed my clittie to move more freely within the cage, but also caused my clittie to smell quite feminine. I wondered if this was part of my wife's plan. After applying the oil, I thought now would be a good time to see if I could remove it. The oil allowed the cage to move some. As I pulled on the cage I soon realized my dilemna, I could not get it off over my balls. Even if I could, there would be no way to put it back on so my wife would clearly know if I removed it. While I was wearing the largest ring for the cage, it was still uncomfortable enough that I didn't want my wife to make me use a smaller size. I realized that if I did pull off the device, I would soon have it back on with a smaller ring. That was not an option I wanted to deal with. It was at this point that I realized I had lost all control of my cock. Only when my wife was ready, would I be allowed to touch it again!

We returned home Friday. I was still locked yet had been teased each night by my wife. As we went to bed Friday evening, my wife told me that if I pleased her, she might unlock my clittie. The prospect of having the cage removed and cumming drove me crazy with desire to please my wife. I gave her a very long, deep massage with her favorite massage oil doing everything possible to please her. Meanwhile, my clittie was straining within my cage, getting as hard as possible in this truly humiliating device.

Finally my wife indicated that she had had enough of my massage and thanked me. I rolled over hoping that my release and orgasm would soon be at hand. To my relief and excitement, my wife produced the key to my cage and unlocked it. She then pulled the tube off of my clittie as it jumped to full hardness bobbing in front of her. I couldn't wait to cum! My wife removed the rest of the rings from my clittie and then settled her head on my shoulder as I gave her a head rub while she played with my clittie. It was not long before she had me on the edge of cumming. She brought me to the edge several more times. I assumed that I would soon be cumming. Then, unexpectedly, she said "goodnight" and rolled over. I pleaded with her to let me cum. After a lot of pleading my wife said, "I told you I would unlock you if you pleased me. I unlocked you and you should be happy. If you continue to beg me to cum I will put it back on." It was at this point that I realized just how much my life had changed. For the first time, my wife truly controlled me 100%. Just the threat of being locked would now be sufficient for her to make sure that I did everything that she asked of me. Before now, I always felt like I could withstand her potential punishments if I disobeyed her. But now I realized I was totally hers! I think she realized it too as she turned with a knowing smile and fell asleep.

The following evening, she continued my torment by bringing me to the edge several times without cumming and then went to sleep. Finally on Sunday, my wife informed me that I would be allowed to cum, but only if I followed Akasha's lesson to the tee. That evening when we went to bed, my wife continued to bring me to the edge of orgasm. Finally she finished and began to roll over to go to sleep. I begged her to let me cum and mentioned Akasha. She immediately turned back over with a smile and said, "I almost forgot. Go get your happy dildo." Once I had the dildo, she told me to stroke my clittie while I sucked the dildo. She encouraged me to take it deeper into my mouth. I felt like such a slut. I was so focussed on cumming that I would do anything at this point to do so and my wife knew it. After several minutes my wife informed me that it was time. I found myself begging her to let me aim most of my cum directly into my mouth. I couldn't believe I was saying it, but it was certainly more appealing than having a cum drenched face as I went to sleep. My wife smiled and said, "you may cum in your mouth for me." I put my legs over my head against the headboard of our bed and began to rub my clittie. My wife joined in by rubbing my balls and moving her hand back to the opening of my ass. I was so turned on that I couldn't wait anymore. I began shooting huge strings of cum onto my face. To my horror the first several strings missed my mouth and landed on my chin and neck. I aimed my clittie higher as the next string landed on the side of my face and in my hair. I finally found the right aim and felt 4 t0 5 strings land directly in my mouth. The intensity of my humilation only seemed to add to the strength of my orgasm. As I clittie stopped producing cum and I began to come down from my orgasmic high, I realized that I no longer had any control. My wife controlled everything. Just the threat of being locked in the cage would make me do anything she asked of me. I was her cumslut. As I sat there with cum all over my face, beginning to dry and pull on my skin I was overcome with humiliation while my wife laughed at my predicament only adding to my shame. She allowed me to wipe some of the cum off my face, but certainly not close to all. With the taste, smell and texture of cum in my mouth, throat and on my lips and face, I rolled to my side on my pillow to go to sleep. I awoke about 30 minutes later to roll over. As I did, I felt a long string of cum stick to my face and my pillow as I raised my head. It seemed stretch with me and eventually released from the pillow and sprung onto my face. I rolled over and went to sleep degraded and unbelievably humiliated, yet happy that I had pleased my wife. I was now her fully controlled cumslut and I loved the thought of never again being able to get away with not obeying her.

My most humiliating orgasm ever!

A few nights ago I experienced the most significant humiliation of my life at the hands of my wife. From my previous post, you can see that my very kinky wife asked me to come up with the most humiliating way for me to cum. I was then expected to complete the task I put forth.

Realizing that the hornier and wetter I could make my wife would potentially score me points, I tried to come up with the most humiliating task possible. Once my wife read my suggestion, she was incredibly excited and wouldn't change a thing. The following is a summary of my most humiliating orgasm.

Once my wife came into the bedroom she could hardly wait to get started. I could tell from her demeanor that I would not be able to wimp out of any portion of my task. She quickly had me put on my black thigh high stockings. I actually kind of liked them as they didn't squish my clittie as much as the control top pantyhose she normally makes me wear. She then applied lipstick to my lips. When she was done, she turned on the light to survey her work. My wife's smile and deep throated laugh began my humiliation for the night as I could tell she was enjoying my feminization.

Once my lipstick met my wife's satisfaction, she instructed me to come over to her side of our bed so that she could put her bra on me. This was unbelievably humiliating for me. She had never made me do this before. I can't begin to describe how difficult this was for me, particularly since my wife began to call me her sissy. While humiliating, I couldn't help but notice that my clittie got harder and harder the more she humiliated me. As luck would have it, or not, my wife's bra didn't fit. Instead of letting me get by without putting it on, she place a nursing bra on me instead. This was even more humiliating. Here I was, her masculine husband by day, dressed like a complete sissy slut for my wife's pleasure. While my mind was telling me to remove my sissy clothes and not complete the task, my clittie kept getting harder and harder.

After my sissy outfit was complete, my wife would not stop grinning at me. She then told me it was time to insert her gold vibrating dildo into my ass. She obviously enjoyed the show as I first lubed my ass and then slowly impaled myself on her dildo. It took a while and much relaxing before I could get it completely inside me. Once in, I pulled up my tight hot pink hiphugger panties I was wearing (from my wife's collection) to hold the vibe in place. The panties provided good support for it, but had enough give that the dildo seemed to fuck me each time I moved. My wife then reached under my panties and turned the vibrating dildo on medium speed.

I was then instructed to give my wife a back massage. I spent the next 15 minutes massaging my wife's body with massage oil while dressed as her slut with a vibrating dildo in my ass. Each time I moved forward to massage her shoulders, the dildo would move out an inch or so and then move back in when I brought my hand back to her lower back. She motion continued for the entire massage. It was difficult to concentrate with the constant sensation of the vibrations in my ass, coupled with the additional fucking motion combined with the humiliation I was feeling dressed as my wife's sissy slut. None the less, my clittie was as hard as rock! I could not figure out why this humiliation was driving me crazy!

After my wife said she was satisified with my massage, she put on her strapon harness in front of me for the first time. Meanwhile, I placed a condom over my clittie to catch all of my cum so that I could eat every last drop once I orgasmed. Seeing my wife kneeling before me with this large dildo protruding from her pussy made me excited and nervous at the same time. She was obviously enjoying herself and her newfound control. She lay down on the bed and motioned for to kneel before her dildo. Soon she told me to begin sucking calling me her sissy. The humiliation was so intense. I have never felt so helpless and vulnerable. I knew that if I did not complete this task that I would face some retribution, possibly being locked back into the cb6000. There was only one this I could do, fully submit to my wife as her willing sissy slave and suck her dildo for 10 minutes. She continued to talk to me as her sissy. With each word, my sissy clittie became more aroused. It seemed that the more she verbally humiliated me, the more turned on I became. She then told me to suck more of her dildo into her mouth. As I did my best to suck it, I forced myself not to think of her dildo as a real cock, but as her cock. It was so humiliating!

After about 5 minutes, my wife changed positions and stood up on the bed with me kneeling; my mouth at dildo level. She began to hit my face with her dildo from side to side while laughing her deep laugh. I knew she was having fun and would likely repeat this over and over again over the next many month. This continued to humiliate me. The more I thought about the humiliating task I was doing dressed as her sissy slut, the closer I came to orgasm. My wife fucked my mouth for another 5 minutes pushing the full length of her 6" dildo into my mouth as I did my best not to gag. For some reason, I felt a sense of accomplishment being able to swallow her whole dildo. As I realized what I was thinking, I became even more humiliated. Why was I feeling good about fully swallowing her dildo? And why was it turning me on?

When my wife was done fucking my mouth, she told me to rub my clittie through my panties while continuing to fuck my mouth. After another minute or so of sucking, my wife said, "cum right now!" Those words hit me like a ton of bricks as the cum immediately spurted out of my clittie while I bit down on the dildo placed deep in my mouth. My orgasm was unbelievably intense. As wave after wave of pleasure came over me, I couldn't help but be humiliated realizing that I was cumming with a large dildo deep in my mouth like some sissy cum slut. I was so humilated but didn't stop. It was then that I realized my wife completely controlled me and that I would likely do anything she wanted. I had completely submitted to her. The vibe in my ass seemed to add to the amount of cum that came out of my clittie. Even though I had cum only two days earlier, the amount of cum was tremendous!

I tried to calm down, never once removing my mouth from her dildo. I don't know why. Maybe I was simply trying to recover or maybe my wife was training me to like it. God I hoped not!!! Whatever the case, my mouth remained on her dildo a little longer as I came down from my orgasmic high and waves and waves of additional humilation crashed down on me. Having just cum, there was no horniness to prevent the feelings of complete submission to my wife. Meanwhile, she was not done.

With a large smile on her face, she instructed me to remove my condom and apply it to her dildo. She then instructed me to once again begin sucking her dildo. After another minute or so, she told me to bite the head of the condom. As I did this, buckets of cum washed down my throat. It felt like she was spurting cum in my mouth from her cock! My humiliation grew. Here I was dressed like a sissy slut having just come with a mouth full of cum and a dildo deeply impaled in my mouth. My wife had me exactly where she wanted me and she knew it! And I knew it too. I knew the truth. My wife could now do whatever she wanted to me. I was officially her sissy slut.

Proposal for My Most Humiliating Way to Cum

Last night my wife informed me that if I wanted to cum I would need to come up with the most humiliating method of all for cumming and that I would be forced to consume every last drop of my cum. Here is my letter to her to get approavl for the ultimate humiliation task.

Good afternoon my Goddess,I have been thinking a lot about you and my task at hand. I so want to please you and have been thinking of ways to really make you wet and excited with my humiliation. Here is what I have in mind for my orgasm tonight. Please let me know your thoughts.

First, you will make me dress in a pair of thigh-high stockings, garter belt if you have one, and one ofyour bras if that turns you on (I got the impression that the humiliation aspect would from you last weekend).

Then you will make me put lipstick on to suck your cock.

Finally, you will make me plug myself with your gold dildo vibe and put on a tight pair of panties to hold it in place for your amusement and my torment.

Once I am ready, you will turn the dildo vibe on high and make me give you a back massage. Once the back massage is completed to your satisfaction, I will role onto my back and begin to rub and tease myself without cumming.While I'm doing this, you will put your strapon harness on with the happy dildo.

When you are readyand I am dying to cum, you will make me put a condom on the tip of my cock and then put the panties back on. When I am ready, you will make me get on my knees,with the vibe still running in my ass, and suck on your dildo for 10 minutes. During this time you will make me worship it like never before and attempt to make me fit it all in my mouth. You will fuck my mouth like you want and talking dirty to me.

Throughout this time, I will be rubbing my cock waiting for the 10 minutes to be up and to hear you say, "cum now slave!"At that point, I will cum in the condom.

Once I am calmed down, hopefully you would allow me to remov ethe vibe from my ass. You would then roll the condom onto your dildo and fuck my mouth for a designated time of your choosing and then instruct me to bite the head of the condom and proceed to suck the cum completely out of it while you continued to fuck my mouth.

I hope this makes you wet! I'm a little nervous!

Your pet,

My Wife Takes Control

As I type this, my hard clittie is wrapped in turquoise blue lace hiphugger panties from VS and control top pantyhose. It's been a humiliating yet arousing week and half since my Goddess's most recent training began. I am very delinquent at posting for this training so I will use this post to get caught up.



My First Lesson:



When I read my first lesson, I became incredibly aroused but also quite nervous. It became crystal clear that my wife intended to take complete control of me. She would now own my orgasms and clittie as never before. How? I was instructed to purchase a CB6000 for her to place on my clittie. While we had aften talked about purchasing a chastity device, I never thought that she would actually want to buy one. My mind raced as I realized that this fantasy would soon be reality. Would she let me cum? How long would I have to wear the device? Would she make me wear it while I'm travelling? All of these questions seemed to make my cllittie even harder. What was wrong with me? Why did the thought of her totol control over me make me so excited? I can't explain it. I was torn between reallizing that my wife would soon totally control me, but also realizing that I would not be able to steal quite rubs of my clittie or cum without her permission ever again!



In hindsight I wish I had taken more full advantage of the opportunity to cum as often as I wanted. In reality, I only came three times. I came twice in the same evening with one time being in my pink thong panties making a quite a mess that I had to sleep in. The third time was the following morning before getting ready for work.





Lesson Two:



When I read lesson two, I realized just how stupid I was in not taking full advantage of my cumming priviledges. If I had been smart I would have enjoyed many orgasms and emptied my balls to prepare me for the long periods of not cumming that would now be real in lesson 2.



As I wore my panties and pantyhose to work both days last week I was constantly reminded of my wife's desire to make me feel feminine under my clothing. This only made me feel more submissive to her. I think she now realizes that the more feminine she makes me feeel, the more control she exerts over me. I often wonder with a mixture of excitement, fear, and humiliation how far she will take my feminization. She seems to really enjoy it; especially when she can bring another woman in to further my humiliation!



The pantyhose and panties constantly rub my clittie, ass and legs creating a continuous reminder that I am my wife's slut to be used as she pleases. I can't help but think of her throughout the day and the feeling of the pantyhose is relentless. When I go to the bathroom, I am humiliated by the thought of one of my male coworkers catching me pulling up my pink panties and then also pulling up my pantyhose. Once last week, I was in the stall with someone outside, I didn't realize until it was too late that he could likely hear the snap of the panties being pulled around my waste and then the distinct SECOND snap of the pantyhose being pulled around my waste! When I realized this, I purposely waited until he had left the bathroom before emerging from the stall. I was so humiliated hoping that he had not recognized my shoes from below the door.



I read Akasha's The Third Way and immediately thought of my wife. I could totally see her placing a dildo in my mouth or mounting it to my face and fucking herself with it. The act, along with the smell of her juices and the sight of her cumming on my face would be both excruciating and humiliating at the same time.\



As I continued reading the story, I tried to decide what position I would choose as the second way in the story. Would I want to be fucked by my wife's strapon while on my back facing her or on my knees with my ass in the air as she pounded me from behind. Both positions are so humiliating to me, but I would probably want to be facing her with the hope that she would reach down and rub my clittie while she pounded me. The act of looking at her while she fucked me would completely humiliate me knowing that this act would complete my total submission to her. Hopefully, when this happens, my clittie will be let out of its cage!



The third way in the story is without question the most diabolical. I fully expect my wife to do this to me as it is similar to a birthday story that I shared with her before this training began. The idea of her fucking herself by placing my caged clittie inside her is excruciating. Being able to feel her pussy around my clittie, but being unable to get hard and cum would be probably the biggest mind game she could play on me; especially if she came from it. I honestly don't know what I would do!

Mid-Week Task:

While at work in the middle of the week with my panties and pantyhose rubbing against my clit. I looked at my blackberry and saw a message from my wife. The subject line said, "READ YOUR EMAIL NOW!" I became extremely excited. My wife was now controlling me while at work. When I opened the email, it simply said, "You have 2 hours to find time to go to the bathroom and cum in your hand. Email me as soon as you have completed this task telling me when you cum and how long it took you to cum."

I couldn't believe it. What was next? Would she call me at work and tell me I had five minutes to be naked and call her back? I didn't know. I realized that I had missed her email when it was initially sent and now only had one hour to complete her task. Worse, I was supposed to be in a one hour meeting that very minute. If I went to the meeting I would not be able to complete her task. I was very worried about the consequences if I did not complete it on time so I headed to the restroom to complete. By the time I arrived in the restroom my clit was rock hard and ready to cum. I sat on the toilet and began stroking it. In less than a minute I had filled my hand with cum. How humiliating. My wife had me so turned on that I could not last even a minute. Her power over me just continues to grow! I cleaned myself up thankful that I did not have to eat my cum or do something else with it and headed off to my meeting knowing that my wife controlled me and that there was nothing I could do about it.

Lesson 3:



It is now apparent that my wife has significantly grown as a domme. It wasn't long ago that my wife basically copied Akasha's lessons and sent them to me to complete. In fact, there was a time when she found Akasha's lessons too kinky and something she didn't want to do. She didn't want me to eat my cum, she didn't want me to cum on my face. She didn't want me to suck her dildo. Now, these things are tame for her!!!



In this third lesson, my wife stated that Akasha's tasks were not hard enough and boring. She told me that she would be creating her own lesson for me; one that would more excite her! I never thought that there would be a day when my wife would be more aggressive than Akasha. I guess I was wrong.



The day before this lesson my CB6000 arrived in the mail along with the lube shooter. My wife clearly has plans for this training! When my lesson arrived my wife asked me to bring 5 things to bed that night: Nail Polish, My "Happy" Dildo, My New CB6000, Massage Oil, and Toilet Paper. My mind raced as I tried to figure out what my wife had in store for me. Would tonight be the night that she fucked me for the first time? Would she have me suck the dildo for her? Would she lock the cage in place and then tease me mercilously as I sucked the dildo? I had no idea. I was excited, but nervous as well. What if she locked me up for a week?

Once in our bedroom, my wife had me sit on her stool with my feet raised as she sat above me painting my toenails. How humiliating! I was sitting below her while my dominant wife applied nail polish to my toes commenting on how pretty they looked. While I was humiliated there was no way to avoid the fact that my clit was rock hard! It seemed that the more she humiliated me, the more turned on I became. After my toenails were dry I was instructed to give my wife a long massage. She indicated that if I did a good job, there "might" be a treat for me. I was desperate to cum so I worked hard to please her. I stopped my massage after about 10-15 minutes to see how she was doing. She requested one more minute. After the minute was up, she requested one more minute. This went on for a while as I became hornier and hornier!

Finally she had had enough and proceeded to see how my clit would fit in the cb6000. I assumed that it would be locked on me then and there. To my surprise and relief she said that it would be put on me another time. Then she began playing with my clit. In no time I was on the verge of cumming. I hadn't cum in a few days and had been continuously aroused by my wife. In fact, the previous evening I fucked her with my clit until she came only to find out that I was not allowed to cum. I am getting used to being her sex toy, and in fact very much enjoying it, but I can't get used to not being allowed to cum. Even so, I would have it no other way.

After several minutes of teasing me, my wife asked me if I wanted to cum. I was in heaven. I quickly said yes. She then asked me how badly I wanted to cum. I replied very badly. She then told me that I would be allowed to cum if I came all over the dildo and then licked it all up. I paused while I considered this tradeoff. I hate the taste of my cum. It is absolutely the most disgusting thing I have ever tasted and it lasts forever in your mouth. While I was considering this trade my wife continued to rub my clit. Finally I could take it no longer and relented. While she continued to rub me, the thought of her making me lick the dildo seemed to turn me on. I don't know why as I hate the taste of cum and the idea of sucking a dildo is incredibly humiliating. But for some reason, probably because the humiliation would reinforce my submissiveness to her, I became more and more aroused. As she rubbed my clit I couldn't think of anything but cumming on the dildo. Soon I was spraying cum all over the place. To my relief, very little cum actually landed on the dildo. I had expected my wife to cover the dildo in my cum, maybe rubbing it over the sticky mess on my stomach making sure to have it completely coated and then force me to make love to the dildo. Maybe she would catch my cum in her hand and then wipe it all over the dildo. I didn't know, but had these images of her.

My orgasm was amazing. As I came down from cloud nine, I remembered that I still needed to suck the cum from the dildo. The idea was now completely revolting. After I cum I have no interest in actually doing the things that I agree to before. However, if my wife didn't follow through on her demands, I would know that I could always get out of them and hence it would not turn me on as much the next time. For me, knowing that my wife will not back down is a huge turn on as it is a clear sign that she is the boss.

My wife slowly brought the dildo to my mouth and I begrudgingly opened it. In went the dildo with a huge amount of sticky cum right on the tip! Most of it went in my mouth as I sucked, but some of it stuck to my lips. As I removed the dildo the first time, a long string of cum stretched from my lips to the dildo and traced itself over my face. How humiliating. I imagined my wife making me suck a real cock. I hope that will never happen, but that's what came into my mind as the cum landed on my face. I sucked the dildo several more times trying to remove all the cum. Finally, my wife said I was done and I removed the dildo from my mouth. I then put my panties back on and began to replay the recent events in my mind.

I couldn't believe it. I began to get excited again as I realized that my wife had created this scene by herself and that she fully dominated me. What would she be like once she had the cb6000 locked on my clit? Would I be made to do even more humilating tasks to be allowed to cum? Would she place my caged clit in her pussy while she brought herself to orgasm only to leave me with no relief? Would she milk with the cage on allowing my cum to ooze out of my clit with no enjoyment for me? I didn't know what to expect, but realized that there was no turning back for my wife. She was a natural domme!

Complete Submission

I feel like I now may know what complete submission is like. Last night my wife took my humiliation and submission to a whole new level making me feel more vulnerable than ever. So how did this happen?

It started by my wife requiring to me to bring myself to the brink of orgasm three times each day while at work. After three days of this plus my wife's teasing of my clittie for an hour each night the volume of precum emitting from my clittie was huge. In fact, the last time I rubbed my clittie to the edge it spurted more than a tablespoon of precum that was as thick and slimy as real cum! Thankfully, it did not taste as bad. Licking that precum from my hands was difficult as I needed to slurp it to get it off since licking it just moved it around my hand. After slurping most of it, I applied a liberal amount to my lips for my "lip gloss." This distracted me the rest of the day as I could constantly feel it on my lips yet each time I licked them, I could taste it but the precum would not go away. It was like it was permanently stuck to my lips! This kept me constantly thinking of my wife and my clittie perpetually hard.

When I got home I couldn't wait to cum. I knew that I would do anything to cum as I was ridiculously horny from all the stimulation and teasing without release. As we got into bed my wife positioned herself in a half sitting position with a 6 inch dildo sticking out from her pussy. She motioned for me, now only in panties with a condom on my clittie, to kneel in front of her. She then told me to get to work. I hoped that she would only make me lick her dildo and that I would be able to cum quickly. I soon learned that this was not in the cards. My wife seemed to thoroughly enjoy humiliating me and making me feel more vulnerable. Ironically, this only made my clittie harder. My wife told me to start sucking as licking was not sufficient. As I started I could feel her breathing getting heavier as she began to buck her hips forward pushing the dildo deeper into my mouth while she watched with excitement. I was so humiliated yet the desire to cum only intensified. I was rubbing my clittie through my panties while sucking a dildo and getting closer and closer to the brink of orgasm.

Once I got to the edge of orgasm I told my wife and she said to stay on the edge, keep sucking and she would tell me when to cum. I hoped that this would be soon as the sucking was starting to really play mind games with me. Was my wife really enjoying this that much? Would I be expected to this more often? As my wife made me continue sucking on the dildo she would periodically remove it from my mouth and swat it against each side of my mouth as if it was her own cock. She seemed to particularly enjoy this aspect of my humiliation. I felt lost in my submission to her. At this point I was clearly more under her control than at any point in my life and my clittie had never been harder.

My hopes for a quick release soon faded as my wife made me suck her dildo for what seemed like forever making me feel more and more vulnerable and submissive to her. Finally she said, "cum" and I quickly began cumming like never before. My clittie had so much cum stored up in it and I had been on the edge for so long that I seemed to cum forever and as strong as possible. All I could do is groan with my mouth filled with her dildo as I came buckets into the condom. Once I calmed down, I realized what I had just done. I felt so humiliated and vulnerable. My wife had gotten me to the point where I would do anything to cum and she took full advantage of it. Further, I realized that I was her slut and willing to do whatever she demanded as long as it pleased her.

Then I remembered that I wasn't done. The worst part was yet to cum. I so hoped that my wife would find it disgusting and let me off the hook. Unfortunately that was not the case. My wife had me remove the condom and place it on her dildo to "cool off" while I massaged her back for 15 minutes. Those 15 minutes were excruciating as I knew that when they were over I would be drinking a ton of cold, slimy cum from a condom that previously had been on my clittie. How humiliating! The 15 minutes were soon up and my wife told me to get the condom. As I picked up the condom I hoped that she would only make me eat a little of my cum and then feel sorry for me. Again my hopes were quickly dashed as she instructed me to lick it clean! I put the open part of the condom into my mouth and lifted the tip of it and pushed down like milking a cow. At that moment my mouth was flooded with a ton of cold, slimy cum. Thankfully it quickly went to the back of my throat and I quickly swallowed hoping to taste as little as possible. At this point I felt even more humiliated lying next to my wife who was lying confidently beside me knowing that she could make me do whatever she wanted for her pleasure and that I was definitely her controllable slave.

Goddess Renee's Slave

Finally Some Relief!

I came home on Friday to see my wife with a gigantic smile on her face. I didn't know what had her so excited until she told me to go look at my email for my next lesson. I knew she was already excited about me having my toenails painted for the next week, but didn't realize that she was now smiling because she knew I would soon be aching to cum all over my face!

After reading my lesson and realizing that I would be allowed to cum I couldn't think about anything else. I was so horny to cum that I would have done anything at that point to be allowed some release. Even the thought of cumming on my face did not change that fact. Of bigger excitement for my wife was the fact that she knew that my buddies would be downstairs in my house while I pulled my panties down to my knees and came all over my face. I could tell that she was more than excited about that prospect.

I headed upstairs with one thing in mind; I would soon be cumming. Once in our bedroom I turned on the shower and proceeded to our closet to get some release. I was so horny my clittie was straining in my panties that I had worn all day with my buddies. I stripped of all my clothes except my panties, lay on the floor and began to rub my clittie through my panties. I was so horny that I quickly was at the brink. I wanted it to last longer, but the thoughts going through my head at that moment had me so turned on and I needed to cum at that minute. I was so horny that the idea of cumming on my face just seemed to turn me on even more. What is wrong with me!?!

I pulled my knees over my head and rested my feet on the shelf behind me. My clittie was now a mere foot from my face and pointed directly at my mouth. I slowly began to rub my clittie and think about what my wife would do to me if she was in the room. My thoughts quickly drove me to the brink and unable to control my clittie, I began to cum all over my face! The volume of cum was ridiculous. It just seemed to keep shooting from my clittie as I rubbed faster and faster. As I rubbed faster, my clittie jerked more and more sending my cum all over my face. I had large drops in both eyes, all over my lips, nose and cheeks. I was totally covered and humiliated. Once I finished cumming I could think of only one thing; getting the cum off my face! How had been diminished to such a state that my wife could so easily get me to complete such a humiliating task? What would I do if she locked me in chastity? That seemed like a very scary proposition at the moment. What would I do if she actually let me inside her? It felt like she totally owned me and I loved it!

I kept my mouth and eyes completely shut; cum sticking abundantly to my face as I made my way to the shower. I entered the shower and immediately placed my face under the water. Finally I could get the cum off and open my mouth and eyes again. NOT!!! The cum was so sticky that I could not open my eyes. My eyes were glued shut with cum!!! How humiliating. I scrubbed and scrubbed my face and finally managed to remove most of the cum. I finished showering and got ready to go back to my wife and friends; knowing that she now knew I would do anything for her and the right to cum.

Goddess Renee's Slave

Caged and Pantied

As I type this my clittie is straining inside my gates of hell and being mercilously rubbed by my soft panties. The gates squeeze my erection as it strains to get even bigger. I am torn as I want to feel my full erection and touch my clittie, but each time it gets harder, the strain of the gates makes it soft again. It is a viscious cycle of tease and denial.

To make matters worse, I am at a guys weekend where I have been constantly worried that one of my buddies will find out I am wearing thong panties

My Most Humiliating Shopping Experience To Date

I can't believe what I just did. I'm still shaking a little and feel a little lite-headed as I write this. As has been the case with each of the increasingly humiliating experiences within this training, my clittie disappointed me and became rock-hard as the experience continued.

All morning I had been unable to think of anything else. My wife expected me to enter a cosmetics store and purchase lipstick and toe nail polish for ME and make sure that the sales person knew they were for ME! She dressed me this morning in pink thong panties and pantyhose making sure that my clittie continued to strongly smell of "sweet pea" lotion. As I made my way to the car, my mind raced with the possibilities of what might happen. Would the sales person look at me in disgust? Would she get fully engaged and make me do things that I didn't want to do. Would she further humiliate me? Would I be able to speak coherently without bumbling based on my nervousness?

I chose to go to MAC Cosmetics in a trendy part of town as I hoped that this would hopefully be a more accepting location than somewhere else. After parking the car, I circled the block three times before finally getting the nerve to enter the store. When I entered the store my heart began to race. There were two people in the store: one older female customer and one young female employee. The sales girl welcomed me and told me that she would be with me shortly as she checked out the female customer. It must have been about 3 minutes of me waiting for her to help me, but it felt like an hour. I attempted to show interest in all the products as I perused the store getting more and more nervous by the second. Finally, the other customer left the store and the sales girl made her way over to me and asked how she could help me.

I had rehearsed what I was going to say several times. I took at deep breath and said, "I lost a bet with my wife and one of the things that she wants me to do is purchase some lipstick that would look good with my skin tone." I couldn't believe I actually said it! My clittie began to stiffen in my panties as the sales girl got an enormous smile on her face and asked me what kind of lipstick I wanted. She was clearly into this. I told her that I did not know, but mentioned that my wife had strongly hinted that she wanted me to purchase a lip gloss. She got an even bigger smile and walked me over to the lip gloss. She then described the different kinds and colors spending extra time telling me how the gloss would make my lips look (ie fuller) or how long it would last on my lips!!! Was she thinking that my wife would have me sucking on something and thus want me to have gloss that would stay on longer!?! Why else would she be pushing me in that direction? I was becoming more humiliated by the minute yet also more aroused!

I told her that the thicker gloss probably made more sense and she then asked me what colors I was interested in. She seemed to be hoping that I would pick the bright colors, but I told her that something that would match my skin tone would be best. She then picked out a color and said, "OK lets try this on to see how it looks." I couldn't believe it! My clittie got as hard as it's ever been while I became the most humiliated I've ever been! How could I be doing this? How could I get out of this? What was going to happen next? Thankfully there was no one else in the store. She walked closer to me and applied the gloss to my lower lip and then told me to push them together. Her eyes and smile were burning through me as she humiliated me more and more. Once the gloss was on she had me look at myself in the mirror while commenting on how pretty it looked on me. She told me that someone would clearly be able to tell that I had something on my lips and she seemed to really like that idea! It was like having another femdom controlling me at that minute and my clittie continued to harden!

Finally I said I would take it and asked her if I could have something to wipe off the gloss. She smiled at my humiliation and provided me with a moist napkin to remove the gloss. As I tried to remove it, I could still feel and taste it on my lips. Even now, nearly two hours after this adventure, I can still taste it on my lips! I did the best I could at removing it and she then asked me if there was anything else that she could help me with. I could tell that she was clearly hoping that she could!

I told her that I also needed to purchase some clear toe nail polish. She walked me to the toe nail polish section and she continued to push me further in humiliation. She said, "I know your wife said clear, but this light blue would be so much more cute and sexy!" I could have died!!! She was actively humiliating me and loving every second of it! My clittie got harder while my heart raced. I told her that the clear would be fine and we went over to the cash register to check out. She seemed disappointed.

While she was checking me out she asked me a few more questions. She wanted to know if she should add me to their "frequent buyer" program and if I would be coming into the store again soon. My humiliation continued! I told her that I didn't know if I would be back soon but didn't think I needed to be added at this time. She continued to check me out and I paid and she handed me the receipt. As I was getting ready to leave she said, "Thanks for coming in today. Keep losing those bets with your wife!" My final humiliation, or so I thought.

I left the store and walked the block or so back to my car. Once in the car I took a deep breath and looked in the mirror. To my horror there was still lip gloss on my lips and it was very noticeable! How many people had seen me like this? I couldn't believe it! I quickly removed the remainder of the lip gloss, calmed down and drove back to work utterly humiliated but more turned on than ever before! What has my wife done to me? She's turned me into her humiliation slave willing to do anything to cum and get close to her pussy!!! Oh how things have changed.

Goddess Renee's Slave

I'm Finally Allowed to Cum!

This post is a few days late as we were travelling for the holiday over the last few days.

After reading Goddess Renee and Akasha's instructions on Tuesday afternoon, I quickly could not think of anything but cumming. Per their instructions I rubbed my clittie to the brink of cumming three times at my desk. I was so horny I didn't even pay close attention to who might be nearby. Once I completed that task my clittie was rock hard and had no interest in getting smaller so I decided to stay at my desk and search for the perfect video for my Goddess and Akasha. This way nobody would see the large bulge in my panties!

I took a lot of time looking for the perfect video for them. I found videos of all kinds. Some showing slaved getting milked; some showing gigantic strap-ons; and one showing a slave led around on a leash by his wife. Finally I found the perfect video. My wife has been obsessed with her strap-on ever since purchasing it from the Stockroom in Akasha's femdom training course in December. The problem for her is that she has not had a chance to use it yet and has never done so. Therefore, I knew that my Goddess would want to see a strap-on video. After viewing the video I selected I also knew it was the perfect video for Akasha. The last scene showed a slave who had been sufficiently pounded by his wife's strap-on bent backwards with his cock facing straight into his mouth as his wife stoked him to completion. I know this is Akasha's favorite slave position and I was so excited to find a video showing it for her.

Once I got home from work I couldn't wait for bedtime. Time seemed to lag on forever. Finally it was time for my release, or so I thought. My wife instructed me to put on my pantyhose and meet her in the bed. Once there, she told me how excited the strap-on video had made her. She watched it three times in a row and claimed to be aching with desire at the computer. We certainly couldn't leave my Goddess aching with need while I was allowed to cum! So my wife instructed me to sit on the bed in my panties and pantyhose and give her a foot massage while she used her Merry Mermaid vibrating dildo to have one of the largest and fastest orgasms she's had in a long time. How humiliating! My wife pleasures herself without my help except for my foot massage. I was jealous of that dildo as it moved in and out of my wife. I had a perfect view while seated with her foot on my pantyhose enclosed hard clittie. She came in waves and my clittie almost burst watching her perfect body writhe in orgasm.

Once she calmed down, it was my turn. The pantyhose were driving me crazy as they massagedmy whole lower body, but the control top made it harder for me to rub myself to orgasm as it pressed hard into my clittie. My wife had me get on all fours and begin to rub my clittie through the pantyhose. I felt so humiliated on all fours and looking more like a woman from the waist down and rubbing my clittie while my wife looked on with excitement. After a few minutes of rubbing but having a difficult time cumming, my wife had me turn around so that she was right behind me. I knew what she was thinking. She wanted my ass! I felt so humiliated and vulnerable as she reached under my ass and began rubbing my balls and asshole. Again, my clittie got the best of me as my humiliation and vulnerability from that position and what my wife was thinking about doing drove me crazy and I only lasted about 15 seconds before having a HUGE orgasm in my panties. I came in buckets; completely soaking my panties and pantyhose.

While I recovered I could tell that my Goddess was getting inpatient as she wanted to see my final act; the part I no longer had any interest in completing. I so hoped that she would change her mind. Unfortunately she would have none of it. Soon she had me remove my pantyhose and panties. She then helped bring my panties up to my mouth. Even though we were in the dark, I could clearly feel the smile on her face as she helped the panties to my lips. They were absolutely drenched! The cum had soaked through them except for the really sticky, lumping stuff. That's what I soon found all over my lips and tongue as I dutifully licked up my mess. How humiliating! I had just cum in a pair of panties and pantyhose while my wife supervised and now I was eating my disgusting tasting cum in her presence! It was so humiliating, but it highlighted the control she now has over me and promises to never give up!

The next day my wife couldn't stop talking about the video and would from time to time come up behind me and grab the middle of my ass; right where I know she wants to place her big, red dildo!

Goddess Renee's Slave

Buying the Gates of Hell

My wife and I did not purchase Akasha's slave training kit prior to the start of this training. While my wife had plenty of panties prepared for me to wear, we did not have a Gates of Hell. Since Akasha mentioned in lesson 3 that the Gates of Hell would be needed soon, we decided that it made sense to get one prior to lesson 4 beginning.

We found over the internet that a upscale adult toy store owned by two women and catering to women sold the Gates of Hell. My wife called the store this morning to make sure that they had one in stock. After much discussion with the sales girl on the phone, my wife placed one on hold and told the girl that her husband would pick it up later today.

When my wife informed me that I was to pick it up and that she placed one on hold, I became a little nervous. My wife has really enjoyed this training so far and thoroughly enjoyed my humiliation last night. Therefore I did not know what she may have told the sales girl and did not know what to expect when I arrived at the store. Thoughts of Akasha's shopping stories raced through my head. Did she tell the girl to make sure it fit me? Did she tell her to make me squirm a little? Did she tell her that I was her slave husband? Did she tell the girl that I was wearing panties? Did she tell her to make me purchase any other submissive items? I did not know, but was nervous as I entered the store.

Once inside the store my heart was racing. I headed over to a shelf with the "Feel Doe" dildo. I had seen one of these on the Stockroom's website and thought that my wife would enjoy it. I wanted to see one in person to see what all the fuss was about. I also wanted to see the "slim" version as I know where it will end up if my wife wants one! Akasha, I would love to get your perspective on this product. Is it something that my budding femdom wife should have in her "toolbox?" Have you used it?

While browsing, a sales girl approached me and asked if she could help me find anything. I think I had a lump in my throat as I told her that I was there to pick up something that my wife had placed on hold. A smile immediately came to her face as she said that you must be Renee's husband. She took me to the counter and produced the Gates of Hell for me. I was extra humiliated, not only at her knowing smile, but due to the fact that there was another female customer at the register when she showed me the item.

I couldn't believe how the sales girl maintained the grin on her face the entire time I was with her. I kept waiting nervously for her to say something to me or tease me in front of the other customer. Thankfully she didn't and I left the store immediately after she handed me the bag. I excited the store and breathed a deep sigh of relief that nothing more had happened. It was then that I realized that my clittie was rock hard! What is wrong with me? Why does it keep happening that when my wife puts me in compromising or humiliating situations my clittie becomes hard? Is that the life of a submissive? I don't know, but I know my wife enjoys it.

Maybe tonight I will understand what she plans to do with the Gates of Hell, but that's another post. Now the only thing we are missing from Akasha's kit is the sealed envelope. I'm sure my wife will improvise!

Goddess Renee's Slave

She made me suck it!

I sit at my desk this morning shaved, smelling like "sweat pea" lotion, and wearing VS satin blue thong panties with a hard clittie remembering the events of the last 24 hours. At this time yesterday I was at my desk with my clittie tightly encased in VS black thong panties and tight control top pantyhose. The hose wreaked havoc on my ability to concentrate on anything but my wife and Akasha as they constantly rubbed my clittie and legs in ways that kept my clittie perpetually hard. On top of that, I could not stop thinking about the humiliating task my wife expected of me later that night. How would I do it? Would I be able to do it? What would my wife think? Would my clittie disappoint me and get rock hard while sucking? Would my wife notice my hard clittie if that happened? All these thoughts and more were going through my head.

All evening I was nervous leading up to my task. Unfortunately, my clittie seemed to respond favorably to it. What is it about me and getting more and more turned on with each humiliating task? I don't yet know, but I know my wife and Akasha enjoy it! I also had a strong desire to please my wife and Akasha. Akasha's kind, encouraging words about my blog pushed me to want to continue to perform well for her and my wife.

When the time to perform for my wife came, I headed to the refrigerator to retrieve the whipped cream while my wife retrieved "my dildo." That's what she callled it! She bought it just for me as she has no intention of using it on herself. She has her own "Merry Mermaid" that keeps her happy. In fact, when I told her how humiliated and vulnerable I felt when I assumed Akasha's favorite position with my panties around my knees, on all fours with my ass cheeks spread apart, she simply smiled and said, "It will definitely happen one day," a reference to my inevitable final step in becoming her complete slave.

My wife purchased a special dildo for me. It is red, about 6 to 7 inches long and quite thick. I'm really nervous about that! It fits in the new strap on harness she purchased and just for her, has a little smiley face on the tip of it that she teases me with. You can see it in one of the pictures on the right.

When I got back to my room with the whipped cream, my wife had my dildo in hand and asked me to spray just a drop of whipped cream on the head of it. She dipped her tongue into it and said, "mmmmm, you may like this after all." She then had me hold it while she applied two large strips of whipped cream to the complete length of the dildo. She then took hold of it, placed it in front of her dripping pussy and smiled at me knowing that it was my time to perform for her.

I can't tell you how nervous and humiliated I was at that time. I don't even think my clittie was hard, even though it was encased in a silky thong and pantyhose. I couldn't believe what I was about to do. I was going to suck a dildo in front of my WIFE!!! In fact I was going to have to seductively lick and suck whipped cream from it! What would she think?

She moved the dildo towards me and I instinctively raised my hands to her hips and stuck out my tongue. I tentatively licked some of the whippend cream from the head and asked my wife if I was doing it correctly. She gave me positive encouragement, but reminded me that I needed to suck it. Her saying that did something to my clittie. All of a sudden I became rock hard listening to her tell me to suck it! This was my wife, the love of my life, making me suck on a dildo for her pleasure and amusement. And I was turned on!!!

As I placed my lips over the head, she seemed to push forward sliding the dildo deeper into my mouth. I could sense her smile as I engulfed the dildo. At this point, I was as humiliated as I have been at any point in my life, but my clittie was a hard as it could be! My wife's control of me, at that moment, became so crystal clear to me and my clittie responded by aching for release inside my pantyhose. It seems the more humiliating the task, whether it be public humiliation or in front of my wife, the harder and more turned on I become. I am certainly my wife's slave.

I sucked my dildo several times, each time with my wife thrusting it deeper into my mouth. I know she was enjoying this experience more than anything she had ever done to me. After several minutes I had sufficiently licked/sucked off all the whipped cream from my dildo and my wife said, "Good Boy, you are done." I stood up to reveal a huge clittie that my wife clearly noticed. She said that this new task would become part of her femdom toolbox. A reference to the fact that she liked it and would be making me do this again.

I must say that this task must have been much harder for me than the other men in Akasha's training. It's humiliating enough to complete this task alone, but having to complete it in front of your wife provides an entirely whole new dimension of humiliation. Here I am an athletic, masculine husband, marketing executive, submitting to my wife in the most humiliating of ways; on my knees sucking a dildo wearing panties and pantyhose and getting more and more turned on with each deeper thrust of her hips! I love my femdom wife! Thanks Akasha for training us so far. Your influence has created a monster and made me more submissive to her by the minute.

Goddess Renee's Slave

The Most Distracting/Humiliating Day of my Life!

I honestly don't no where to start. This has been a day that I will never forget. It started this morning when I awoke to find my clittie hard and dying to cum. Since my wife is supervising my training, I have been receiving nightly one hour teasing sessions where she strokes my clittie. While I thoroughly enjoy these sessions and hope that they continue, they do make things much more challenging for me due to the buildup of desire and cum in my balls. In fact, I had blue balls last night and my Goddess was kind enough to allow me to stroke myself until a large amount of pre-cum spurted out of my clittie to relieve some pressure (as long as I licked it all up). Thankfully precum doesn't taste at all like cum!

After showering and bathing my clittie in "sweet pea" scented bubble bath I headed to our walk-in closet to begin the task of tucking my clittie. I immediately discovered a problem as my clittie was hard making it difficult to effectively tuck it. In order to meet my wife and Akasha's requirements of a flat front of my panties, I first needed to tape my balls down separately in order to get them out of the way for my clittie. Then I taped down my clittie. Once I put on my purple bikini panties, you wouldn't have been able to tell that I wasn't a woman! The final step was the control top pantyhose. I had never worn pantyhose before today. The pantyhose made my clittie look even less visible. On top of that, the feeling of them drove me crazy. They kept caressing my legs and ass reminding me that I was wearing a significant amount of women's undergarments. This both humiliated me and excited me at the same time! I know my wife enjoyed it!

Once I had everything on, my wife came in to inspect me and take pictures. The pictures should be uploaded shortly. I hope Akasha likes the results; I know my wife did!

Once I left the house, the real challenge of my day began. There has literally been not one minute where I didn't think about my condition today and how my wife is in complete control of me. Every step I made rubs and pulls on my clittie tucked down between my legs giving me a huge erection. I think that if I walked far enough continuously, my clittie would cum into my panties and all over my ass. Even while sitting I can not ignore the sensations coming from my clittie. I also can't ignore the feelings the pantyhose are providing to my legs, ass, and toes. The feminine feel of them is incredibly arousing at is rubs against me further hardening my clittie.

I think this was also the most humiliating day of my life. The front of my pants was completely flat missing its normal bulge from my clittie. My wife assured me that few women inspect that area of a man, but lucky me, that was not the case today. After lunch, I stopped by a female colleague's cube to discuss some work topic. She was sitting in her chair with me standing. I didn't realize it at the time, but her eyes were at the same level as my clittie. After a few minutes of talking, she asked me, "Have you lost weight?" I was so humiliated realizing that the control top pantyhose had likely made me appear thinner and that she must have seen my lack of bulge in the front of my pants. I don't know what she must have been thinking, but I was sufficiently humiliated knowing that it was a pair of women's control top panties that made her think I had lost weight! How is it possible that only a few days ago I was wearing normal male underwear and now I am shaved, wearing panties and pantyhose, and my clittie is effectively gone as it is taped under my ass!?!

I can't believe how horny I am. At this point, I would do anything to cum. I think that was my wife and Akasha's plan hence I am scared for tomorrow's new lesson. My wife will have me to herself for the next 2 days which further excites and scares me. I don't know how much more control she can have over me, but I guess I'll find out soon.

Goddess Renee's Slave