Complete Submission

I feel like I now may know what complete submission is like. Last night my wife took my humiliation and submission to a whole new level making me feel more vulnerable than ever. So how did this happen?

It started by my wife requiring to me to bring myself to the brink of orgasm three times each day while at work. After three days of this plus my wife's teasing of my clittie for an hour each night the volume of precum emitting from my clittie was huge. In fact, the last time I rubbed my clittie to the edge it spurted more than a tablespoon of precum that was as thick and slimy as real cum! Thankfully, it did not taste as bad. Licking that precum from my hands was difficult as I needed to slurp it to get it off since licking it just moved it around my hand. After slurping most of it, I applied a liberal amount to my lips for my "lip gloss." This distracted me the rest of the day as I could constantly feel it on my lips yet each time I licked them, I could taste it but the precum would not go away. It was like it was permanently stuck to my lips! This kept me constantly thinking of my wife and my clittie perpetually hard.

When I got home I couldn't wait to cum. I knew that I would do anything to cum as I was ridiculously horny from all the stimulation and teasing without release. As we got into bed my wife positioned herself in a half sitting position with a 6 inch dildo sticking out from her pussy. She motioned for me, now only in panties with a condom on my clittie, to kneel in front of her. She then told me to get to work. I hoped that she would only make me lick her dildo and that I would be able to cum quickly. I soon learned that this was not in the cards. My wife seemed to thoroughly enjoy humiliating me and making me feel more vulnerable. Ironically, this only made my clittie harder. My wife told me to start sucking as licking was not sufficient. As I started I could feel her breathing getting heavier as she began to buck her hips forward pushing the dildo deeper into my mouth while she watched with excitement. I was so humiliated yet the desire to cum only intensified. I was rubbing my clittie through my panties while sucking a dildo and getting closer and closer to the brink of orgasm.

Once I got to the edge of orgasm I told my wife and she said to stay on the edge, keep sucking and she would tell me when to cum. I hoped that this would be soon as the sucking was starting to really play mind games with me. Was my wife really enjoying this that much? Would I be expected to this more often? As my wife made me continue sucking on the dildo she would periodically remove it from my mouth and swat it against each side of my mouth as if it was her own cock. She seemed to particularly enjoy this aspect of my humiliation. I felt lost in my submission to her. At this point I was clearly more under her control than at any point in my life and my clittie had never been harder.

My hopes for a quick release soon faded as my wife made me suck her dildo for what seemed like forever making me feel more and more vulnerable and submissive to her. Finally she said, "cum" and I quickly began cumming like never before. My clittie had so much cum stored up in it and I had been on the edge for so long that I seemed to cum forever and as strong as possible. All I could do is groan with my mouth filled with her dildo as I came buckets into the condom. Once I calmed down, I realized what I had just done. I felt so humiliated and vulnerable. My wife had gotten me to the point where I would do anything to cum and she took full advantage of it. Further, I realized that I was her slut and willing to do whatever she demanded as long as it pleased her.

Then I remembered that I wasn't done. The worst part was yet to cum. I so hoped that my wife would find it disgusting and let me off the hook. Unfortunately that was not the case. My wife had me remove the condom and place it on her dildo to "cool off" while I massaged her back for 15 minutes. Those 15 minutes were excruciating as I knew that when they were over I would be drinking a ton of cold, slimy cum from a condom that previously had been on my clittie. How humiliating! The 15 minutes were soon up and my wife told me to get the condom. As I picked up the condom I hoped that she would only make me eat a little of my cum and then feel sorry for me. Again my hopes were quickly dashed as she instructed me to lick it clean! I put the open part of the condom into my mouth and lifted the tip of it and pushed down like milking a cow. At that moment my mouth was flooded with a ton of cold, slimy cum. Thankfully it quickly went to the back of my throat and I quickly swallowed hoping to taste as little as possible. At this point I felt even more humiliated lying next to my wife who was lying confidently beside me knowing that she could make me do whatever she wanted for her pleasure and that I was definitely her controllable slave.

Goddess Renee's Slave

Finally Some Relief!

I came home on Friday to see my wife with a gigantic smile on her face. I didn't know what had her so excited until she told me to go look at my email for my next lesson. I knew she was already excited about me having my toenails painted for the next week, but didn't realize that she was now smiling because she knew I would soon be aching to cum all over my face!

After reading my lesson and realizing that I would be allowed to cum I couldn't think about anything else. I was so horny to cum that I would have done anything at that point to be allowed some release. Even the thought of cumming on my face did not change that fact. Of bigger excitement for my wife was the fact that she knew that my buddies would be downstairs in my house while I pulled my panties down to my knees and came all over my face. I could tell that she was more than excited about that prospect.

I headed upstairs with one thing in mind; I would soon be cumming. Once in our bedroom I turned on the shower and proceeded to our closet to get some release. I was so horny my clittie was straining in my panties that I had worn all day with my buddies. I stripped of all my clothes except my panties, lay on the floor and began to rub my clittie through my panties. I was so horny that I quickly was at the brink. I wanted it to last longer, but the thoughts going through my head at that moment had me so turned on and I needed to cum at that minute. I was so horny that the idea of cumming on my face just seemed to turn me on even more. What is wrong with me!?!

I pulled my knees over my head and rested my feet on the shelf behind me. My clittie was now a mere foot from my face and pointed directly at my mouth. I slowly began to rub my clittie and think about what my wife would do to me if she was in the room. My thoughts quickly drove me to the brink and unable to control my clittie, I began to cum all over my face! The volume of cum was ridiculous. It just seemed to keep shooting from my clittie as I rubbed faster and faster. As I rubbed faster, my clittie jerked more and more sending my cum all over my face. I had large drops in both eyes, all over my lips, nose and cheeks. I was totally covered and humiliated. Once I finished cumming I could think of only one thing; getting the cum off my face! How had been diminished to such a state that my wife could so easily get me to complete such a humiliating task? What would I do if she locked me in chastity? That seemed like a very scary proposition at the moment. What would I do if she actually let me inside her? It felt like she totally owned me and I loved it!

I kept my mouth and eyes completely shut; cum sticking abundantly to my face as I made my way to the shower. I entered the shower and immediately placed my face under the water. Finally I could get the cum off and open my mouth and eyes again. NOT!!! The cum was so sticky that I could not open my eyes. My eyes were glued shut with cum!!! How humiliating. I scrubbed and scrubbed my face and finally managed to remove most of the cum. I finished showering and got ready to go back to my wife and friends; knowing that she now knew I would do anything for her and the right to cum.

Goddess Renee's Slave

Caged and Pantied

As I type this my clittie is straining inside my gates of hell and being mercilously rubbed by my soft panties. The gates squeeze my erection as it strains to get even bigger. I am torn as I want to feel my full erection and touch my clittie, but each time it gets harder, the strain of the gates makes it soft again. It is a viscious cycle of tease and denial.

To make matters worse, I am at a guys weekend where I have been constantly worried that one of my buddies will find out I am wearing thong panties

My Most Humiliating Shopping Experience To Date

I can't believe what I just did. I'm still shaking a little and feel a little lite-headed as I write this. As has been the case with each of the increasingly humiliating experiences within this training, my clittie disappointed me and became rock-hard as the experience continued.

All morning I had been unable to think of anything else. My wife expected me to enter a cosmetics store and purchase lipstick and toe nail polish for ME and make sure that the sales person knew they were for ME! She dressed me this morning in pink thong panties and pantyhose making sure that my clittie continued to strongly smell of "sweet pea" lotion. As I made my way to the car, my mind raced with the possibilities of what might happen. Would the sales person look at me in disgust? Would she get fully engaged and make me do things that I didn't want to do. Would she further humiliate me? Would I be able to speak coherently without bumbling based on my nervousness?

I chose to go to MAC Cosmetics in a trendy part of town as I hoped that this would hopefully be a more accepting location than somewhere else. After parking the car, I circled the block three times before finally getting the nerve to enter the store. When I entered the store my heart began to race. There were two people in the store: one older female customer and one young female employee. The sales girl welcomed me and told me that she would be with me shortly as she checked out the female customer. It must have been about 3 minutes of me waiting for her to help me, but it felt like an hour. I attempted to show interest in all the products as I perused the store getting more and more nervous by the second. Finally, the other customer left the store and the sales girl made her way over to me and asked how she could help me.

I had rehearsed what I was going to say several times. I took at deep breath and said, "I lost a bet with my wife and one of the things that she wants me to do is purchase some lipstick that would look good with my skin tone." I couldn't believe I actually said it! My clittie began to stiffen in my panties as the sales girl got an enormous smile on her face and asked me what kind of lipstick I wanted. She was clearly into this. I told her that I did not know, but mentioned that my wife had strongly hinted that she wanted me to purchase a lip gloss. She got an even bigger smile and walked me over to the lip gloss. She then described the different kinds and colors spending extra time telling me how the gloss would make my lips look (ie fuller) or how long it would last on my lips!!! Was she thinking that my wife would have me sucking on something and thus want me to have gloss that would stay on longer!?! Why else would she be pushing me in that direction? I was becoming more humiliated by the minute yet also more aroused!

I told her that the thicker gloss probably made more sense and she then asked me what colors I was interested in. She seemed to be hoping that I would pick the bright colors, but I told her that something that would match my skin tone would be best. She then picked out a color and said, "OK lets try this on to see how it looks." I couldn't believe it! My clittie got as hard as it's ever been while I became the most humiliated I've ever been! How could I be doing this? How could I get out of this? What was going to happen next? Thankfully there was no one else in the store. She walked closer to me and applied the gloss to my lower lip and then told me to push them together. Her eyes and smile were burning through me as she humiliated me more and more. Once the gloss was on she had me look at myself in the mirror while commenting on how pretty it looked on me. She told me that someone would clearly be able to tell that I had something on my lips and she seemed to really like that idea! It was like having another femdom controlling me at that minute and my clittie continued to harden!

Finally I said I would take it and asked her if I could have something to wipe off the gloss. She smiled at my humiliation and provided me with a moist napkin to remove the gloss. As I tried to remove it, I could still feel and taste it on my lips. Even now, nearly two hours after this adventure, I can still taste it on my lips! I did the best I could at removing it and she then asked me if there was anything else that she could help me with. I could tell that she was clearly hoping that she could!

I told her that I also needed to purchase some clear toe nail polish. She walked me to the toe nail polish section and she continued to push me further in humiliation. She said, "I know your wife said clear, but this light blue would be so much more cute and sexy!" I could have died!!! She was actively humiliating me and loving every second of it! My clittie got harder while my heart raced. I told her that the clear would be fine and we went over to the cash register to check out. She seemed disappointed.

While she was checking me out she asked me a few more questions. She wanted to know if she should add me to their "frequent buyer" program and if I would be coming into the store again soon. My humiliation continued! I told her that I didn't know if I would be back soon but didn't think I needed to be added at this time. She continued to check me out and I paid and she handed me the receipt. As I was getting ready to leave she said, "Thanks for coming in today. Keep losing those bets with your wife!" My final humiliation, or so I thought.

I left the store and walked the block or so back to my car. Once in the car I took a deep breath and looked in the mirror. To my horror there was still lip gloss on my lips and it was very noticeable! How many people had seen me like this? I couldn't believe it! I quickly removed the remainder of the lip gloss, calmed down and drove back to work utterly humiliated but more turned on than ever before! What has my wife done to me? She's turned me into her humiliation slave willing to do anything to cum and get close to her pussy!!! Oh how things have changed.

Goddess Renee's Slave

I'm Finally Allowed to Cum!

This post is a few days late as we were travelling for the holiday over the last few days.

After reading Goddess Renee and Akasha's instructions on Tuesday afternoon, I quickly could not think of anything but cumming. Per their instructions I rubbed my clittie to the brink of cumming three times at my desk. I was so horny I didn't even pay close attention to who might be nearby. Once I completed that task my clittie was rock hard and had no interest in getting smaller so I decided to stay at my desk and search for the perfect video for my Goddess and Akasha. This way nobody would see the large bulge in my panties!

I took a lot of time looking for the perfect video for them. I found videos of all kinds. Some showing slaved getting milked; some showing gigantic strap-ons; and one showing a slave led around on a leash by his wife. Finally I found the perfect video. My wife has been obsessed with her strap-on ever since purchasing it from the Stockroom in Akasha's femdom training course in December. The problem for her is that she has not had a chance to use it yet and has never done so. Therefore, I knew that my Goddess would want to see a strap-on video. After viewing the video I selected I also knew it was the perfect video for Akasha. The last scene showed a slave who had been sufficiently pounded by his wife's strap-on bent backwards with his cock facing straight into his mouth as his wife stoked him to completion. I know this is Akasha's favorite slave position and I was so excited to find a video showing it for her.

Once I got home from work I couldn't wait for bedtime. Time seemed to lag on forever. Finally it was time for my release, or so I thought. My wife instructed me to put on my pantyhose and meet her in the bed. Once there, she told me how excited the strap-on video had made her. She watched it three times in a row and claimed to be aching with desire at the computer. We certainly couldn't leave my Goddess aching with need while I was allowed to cum! So my wife instructed me to sit on the bed in my panties and pantyhose and give her a foot massage while she used her Merry Mermaid vibrating dildo to have one of the largest and fastest orgasms she's had in a long time. How humiliating! My wife pleasures herself without my help except for my foot massage. I was jealous of that dildo as it moved in and out of my wife. I had a perfect view while seated with her foot on my pantyhose enclosed hard clittie. She came in waves and my clittie almost burst watching her perfect body writhe in orgasm.

Once she calmed down, it was my turn. The pantyhose were driving me crazy as they massagedmy whole lower body, but the control top made it harder for me to rub myself to orgasm as it pressed hard into my clittie. My wife had me get on all fours and begin to rub my clittie through the pantyhose. I felt so humiliated on all fours and looking more like a woman from the waist down and rubbing my clittie while my wife looked on with excitement. After a few minutes of rubbing but having a difficult time cumming, my wife had me turn around so that she was right behind me. I knew what she was thinking. She wanted my ass! I felt so humiliated and vulnerable as she reached under my ass and began rubbing my balls and asshole. Again, my clittie got the best of me as my humiliation and vulnerability from that position and what my wife was thinking about doing drove me crazy and I only lasted about 15 seconds before having a HUGE orgasm in my panties. I came in buckets; completely soaking my panties and pantyhose.

While I recovered I could tell that my Goddess was getting inpatient as she wanted to see my final act; the part I no longer had any interest in completing. I so hoped that she would change her mind. Unfortunately she would have none of it. Soon she had me remove my pantyhose and panties. She then helped bring my panties up to my mouth. Even though we were in the dark, I could clearly feel the smile on her face as she helped the panties to my lips. They were absolutely drenched! The cum had soaked through them except for the really sticky, lumping stuff. That's what I soon found all over my lips and tongue as I dutifully licked up my mess. How humiliating! I had just cum in a pair of panties and pantyhose while my wife supervised and now I was eating my disgusting tasting cum in her presence! It was so humiliating, but it highlighted the control she now has over me and promises to never give up!

The next day my wife couldn't stop talking about the video and would from time to time come up behind me and grab the middle of my ass; right where I know she wants to place her big, red dildo!

Goddess Renee's Slave

Buying the Gates of Hell

My wife and I did not purchase Akasha's slave training kit prior to the start of this training. While my wife had plenty of panties prepared for me to wear, we did not have a Gates of Hell. Since Akasha mentioned in lesson 3 that the Gates of Hell would be needed soon, we decided that it made sense to get one prior to lesson 4 beginning.

We found over the internet that a upscale adult toy store owned by two women and catering to women sold the Gates of Hell. My wife called the store this morning to make sure that they had one in stock. After much discussion with the sales girl on the phone, my wife placed one on hold and told the girl that her husband would pick it up later today.

When my wife informed me that I was to pick it up and that she placed one on hold, I became a little nervous. My wife has really enjoyed this training so far and thoroughly enjoyed my humiliation last night. Therefore I did not know what she may have told the sales girl and did not know what to expect when I arrived at the store. Thoughts of Akasha's shopping stories raced through my head. Did she tell the girl to make sure it fit me? Did she tell her to make me squirm a little? Did she tell her that I was her slave husband? Did she tell the girl that I was wearing panties? Did she tell her to make me purchase any other submissive items? I did not know, but was nervous as I entered the store.

Once inside the store my heart was racing. I headed over to a shelf with the "Feel Doe" dildo. I had seen one of these on the Stockroom's website and thought that my wife would enjoy it. I wanted to see one in person to see what all the fuss was about. I also wanted to see the "slim" version as I know where it will end up if my wife wants one! Akasha, I would love to get your perspective on this product. Is it something that my budding femdom wife should have in her "toolbox?" Have you used it?

While browsing, a sales girl approached me and asked if she could help me find anything. I think I had a lump in my throat as I told her that I was there to pick up something that my wife had placed on hold. A smile immediately came to her face as she said that you must be Renee's husband. She took me to the counter and produced the Gates of Hell for me. I was extra humiliated, not only at her knowing smile, but due to the fact that there was another female customer at the register when she showed me the item.

I couldn't believe how the sales girl maintained the grin on her face the entire time I was with her. I kept waiting nervously for her to say something to me or tease me in front of the other customer. Thankfully she didn't and I left the store immediately after she handed me the bag. I excited the store and breathed a deep sigh of relief that nothing more had happened. It was then that I realized that my clittie was rock hard! What is wrong with me? Why does it keep happening that when my wife puts me in compromising or humiliating situations my clittie becomes hard? Is that the life of a submissive? I don't know, but I know my wife enjoys it.

Maybe tonight I will understand what she plans to do with the Gates of Hell, but that's another post. Now the only thing we are missing from Akasha's kit is the sealed envelope. I'm sure my wife will improvise!

Goddess Renee's Slave

She made me suck it!

I sit at my desk this morning shaved, smelling like "sweat pea" lotion, and wearing VS satin blue thong panties with a hard clittie remembering the events of the last 24 hours. At this time yesterday I was at my desk with my clittie tightly encased in VS black thong panties and tight control top pantyhose. The hose wreaked havoc on my ability to concentrate on anything but my wife and Akasha as they constantly rubbed my clittie and legs in ways that kept my clittie perpetually hard. On top of that, I could not stop thinking about the humiliating task my wife expected of me later that night. How would I do it? Would I be able to do it? What would my wife think? Would my clittie disappoint me and get rock hard while sucking? Would my wife notice my hard clittie if that happened? All these thoughts and more were going through my head.

All evening I was nervous leading up to my task. Unfortunately, my clittie seemed to respond favorably to it. What is it about me and getting more and more turned on with each humiliating task? I don't yet know, but I know my wife and Akasha enjoy it! I also had a strong desire to please my wife and Akasha. Akasha's kind, encouraging words about my blog pushed me to want to continue to perform well for her and my wife.

When the time to perform for my wife came, I headed to the refrigerator to retrieve the whipped cream while my wife retrieved "my dildo." That's what she callled it! She bought it just for me as she has no intention of using it on herself. She has her own "Merry Mermaid" that keeps her happy. In fact, when I told her how humiliated and vulnerable I felt when I assumed Akasha's favorite position with my panties around my knees, on all fours with my ass cheeks spread apart, she simply smiled and said, "It will definitely happen one day," a reference to my inevitable final step in becoming her complete slave.

My wife purchased a special dildo for me. It is red, about 6 to 7 inches long and quite thick. I'm really nervous about that! It fits in the new strap on harness she purchased and just for her, has a little smiley face on the tip of it that she teases me with. You can see it in one of the pictures on the right.

When I got back to my room with the whipped cream, my wife had my dildo in hand and asked me to spray just a drop of whipped cream on the head of it. She dipped her tongue into it and said, "mmmmm, you may like this after all." She then had me hold it while she applied two large strips of whipped cream to the complete length of the dildo. She then took hold of it, placed it in front of her dripping pussy and smiled at me knowing that it was my time to perform for her.

I can't tell you how nervous and humiliated I was at that time. I don't even think my clittie was hard, even though it was encased in a silky thong and pantyhose. I couldn't believe what I was about to do. I was going to suck a dildo in front of my WIFE!!! In fact I was going to have to seductively lick and suck whipped cream from it! What would she think?

She moved the dildo towards me and I instinctively raised my hands to her hips and stuck out my tongue. I tentatively licked some of the whippend cream from the head and asked my wife if I was doing it correctly. She gave me positive encouragement, but reminded me that I needed to suck it. Her saying that did something to my clittie. All of a sudden I became rock hard listening to her tell me to suck it! This was my wife, the love of my life, making me suck on a dildo for her pleasure and amusement. And I was turned on!!!

As I placed my lips over the head, she seemed to push forward sliding the dildo deeper into my mouth. I could sense her smile as I engulfed the dildo. At this point, I was as humiliated as I have been at any point in my life, but my clittie was a hard as it could be! My wife's control of me, at that moment, became so crystal clear to me and my clittie responded by aching for release inside my pantyhose. It seems the more humiliating the task, whether it be public humiliation or in front of my wife, the harder and more turned on I become. I am certainly my wife's slave.

I sucked my dildo several times, each time with my wife thrusting it deeper into my mouth. I know she was enjoying this experience more than anything she had ever done to me. After several minutes I had sufficiently licked/sucked off all the whipped cream from my dildo and my wife said, "Good Boy, you are done." I stood up to reveal a huge clittie that my wife clearly noticed. She said that this new task would become part of her femdom toolbox. A reference to the fact that she liked it and would be making me do this again.

I must say that this task must have been much harder for me than the other men in Akasha's training. It's humiliating enough to complete this task alone, but having to complete it in front of your wife provides an entirely whole new dimension of humiliation. Here I am an athletic, masculine husband, marketing executive, submitting to my wife in the most humiliating of ways; on my knees sucking a dildo wearing panties and pantyhose and getting more and more turned on with each deeper thrust of her hips! I love my femdom wife! Thanks Akasha for training us so far. Your influence has created a monster and made me more submissive to her by the minute.

Goddess Renee's Slave