The Most Distracting/Humiliating Day of my Life!

I honestly don't no where to start. This has been a day that I will never forget. It started this morning when I awoke to find my clittie hard and dying to cum. Since my wife is supervising my training, I have been receiving nightly one hour teasing sessions where she strokes my clittie. While I thoroughly enjoy these sessions and hope that they continue, they do make things much more challenging for me due to the buildup of desire and cum in my balls. In fact, I had blue balls last night and my Goddess was kind enough to allow me to stroke myself until a large amount of pre-cum spurted out of my clittie to relieve some pressure (as long as I licked it all up). Thankfully precum doesn't taste at all like cum!

After showering and bathing my clittie in "sweet pea" scented bubble bath I headed to our walk-in closet to begin the task of tucking my clittie. I immediately discovered a problem as my clittie was hard making it difficult to effectively tuck it. In order to meet my wife and Akasha's requirements of a flat front of my panties, I first needed to tape my balls down separately in order to get them out of the way for my clittie. Then I taped down my clittie. Once I put on my purple bikini panties, you wouldn't have been able to tell that I wasn't a woman! The final step was the control top pantyhose. I had never worn pantyhose before today. The pantyhose made my clittie look even less visible. On top of that, the feeling of them drove me crazy. They kept caressing my legs and ass reminding me that I was wearing a significant amount of women's undergarments. This both humiliated me and excited me at the same time! I know my wife enjoyed it!

Once I had everything on, my wife came in to inspect me and take pictures. The pictures should be uploaded shortly. I hope Akasha likes the results; I know my wife did!

Once I left the house, the real challenge of my day began. There has literally been not one minute where I didn't think about my condition today and how my wife is in complete control of me. Every step I made rubs and pulls on my clittie tucked down between my legs giving me a huge erection. I think that if I walked far enough continuously, my clittie would cum into my panties and all over my ass. Even while sitting I can not ignore the sensations coming from my clittie. I also can't ignore the feelings the pantyhose are providing to my legs, ass, and toes. The feminine feel of them is incredibly arousing at is rubs against me further hardening my clittie.

I think this was also the most humiliating day of my life. The front of my pants was completely flat missing its normal bulge from my clittie. My wife assured me that few women inspect that area of a man, but lucky me, that was not the case today. After lunch, I stopped by a female colleague's cube to discuss some work topic. She was sitting in her chair with me standing. I didn't realize it at the time, but her eyes were at the same level as my clittie. After a few minutes of talking, she asked me, "Have you lost weight?" I was so humiliated realizing that the control top pantyhose had likely made me appear thinner and that she must have seen my lack of bulge in the front of my pants. I don't know what she must have been thinking, but I was sufficiently humiliated knowing that it was a pair of women's control top panties that made her think I had lost weight! How is it possible that only a few days ago I was wearing normal male underwear and now I am shaved, wearing panties and pantyhose, and my clittie is effectively gone as it is taped under my ass!?!

I can't believe how horny I am. At this point, I would do anything to cum. I think that was my wife and Akasha's plan hence I am scared for tomorrow's new lesson. My wife will have me to herself for the next 2 days which further excites and scares me. I don't know how much more control she can have over me, but I guess I'll find out soon.

Goddess Renee's Slave

Lesson Two Part One - Shopping

Its 5:00pm and I'm sitting in my office replaying the events of the day with my clittie as hard as a rock. My day started this morning with my "sweet pea" scented clittie tucked neatly into a new pair of panties I had purchased for my WIFE only a few weeks ago! How did this happen!?! She informed me that all 6 of the panties I purchased for her would soon be mine. Soon my total underwear will be about 50% panties! I expect that this was her plan all along.

Once I got to work I read lesson two. To say I was surprised would be an understatement. Clearly Akasha is quickly moving my novice femdom wife to expert femdom status. I don't know which part of the lesson scared me more, the shopping trip or the fact that the front of my pants will look entirely feminine all day tomorrow at work. Thank God I have a khaki pair of pants that will hopefully hide it. While this lesson is significantly stretching my submissive capabilities and makes me nervous and humiliated, it also excites me to see my wife taking such control of me. I can't believe she is going to make me go through with this and that its all for her pleasure!

After lunch I headed to the drug store with a hard clittie inside lime green thong panties from Victorias Secret. I don't know why my clittie gets hard when preparing to do humiliating things, but it always does! I entered the store hoping there would be just a few people in there and that nobody would offer assistance. Thankfully, that turned out to be the case. I headed for the lipstick aisle first knowing that I could easily hide the tube of lipstick in my hand while looking for the pantyhose and tape. I found a nice shade of pink called "peony pink;" my wife's favorite flower. I hope she will like it. It only took me a few minutes to find it and I was glad I could move on before someone noticed me. Throughout the experience, I felt as if women were watching me knowing what I was really there for. My heart was racing!

Next I headed for the medical tape section. I quickly found some "extra strong" tape that will hopefully hold my clittie in place tomorrow. My balls are full and my clittie gets hard at just the slightest touch so I don't know how I am going to tape it down. I also don't know how I am going to pee tomorrow without getting it all over my ass! Or how I am going to sit down without hurting my clittie!

Finally I headed to the pantyhose aisle for the hardest part of the trip. I had no idea what to look for. I didn't know that there were different sizes or what size would fit me. There were also so many different types of pantyhose that it took me some time to get oriented to everything there. Finally I found the control top section and noticed that the sizes were in letters. What?? I reached for a package just in time to have a woman stop in the aisle to look as well. I hoped she would pick out something and leave quickly as I didn't want her to see me looking at the size chart on the back and realizing that they were for me. She left quickly and I glanced at the size chart. It was complicated which required me to spend more time looking at it than I wanted to. I'm tall, so the size chart with weight included ulitmately said that I was a Q2; the largest size. Next I had to find size Q2 in nude control top. This was impossible. Apparently this drug store does not cater to large women as there were only a few pairs of size Q2 control top panties. After a long time searching and I'm sure many women glancing my way, I found tan Q2 control top pantyhose. I was so grateful to be done by this point as my heart had been racing while looking for the right size knowing that there were several women in the store. I had spent at least 20 minutes looking at pantyhose!!!

Finally, I headed to the counter. Thankfully nobody was waiting in line and the cashier was an older lady. I would have died if it had been a young, cute salesgirl! The lady very quickly checked me out and didn't appear to notice my choice of items to purchase. Who knows, she could have told all her friends about my purchase once I left, but by this point I didn't care since I was back in my car on my way back to work.

Needless to say, the shopping trip was incredibly humiliating and nerve racking but I was excited to complete it knowing that my beautiful femdom wife and Akasha would be pleased. I will post again tomorrow with the results of my taping.

Goddess Renee's Slave

My Clittie

Well another training program has started for me and my wife. We were both excited to start this new training with the help and guidance of Akasha, but after reading the first lesson, I am still excited, but also a bit nervous. I have a feeling that Akasha will educate my wife on things that neither of us had ever considered. This does excite me, but I am concerned that I will not be able to complete all the required tasks without some prodding. I really want to please Goddess Renee and Akasha so I hope that they will find ways to make me comply if necessary.

As you can see by the title of this message, my cock is now my Clittie and will be known as that throughout my training. It was difficult for me to choose whether to name it my Clittie versus my useless dick, but I ultimately decided that I preferred my Clittie as I did not want to consider my dick useless. I don't know, maybe there is some other subconscious reason why I chose my Clittie, but if so, I don't know it. My wife, Goddess Renee who is supervising my training, was surprised and I think excited that I picked the feminine name for my cock. She seemed to get an evil smile as I mentioned it. What does she have planned for me?

I sit at my desk at work right now with a virtually hairless clittie encased in silky soft thong panties. They are VS blue thong panties with gold lace trim and a blue bow at the top. They have been driving me crazy all day as I have had difficulty thinking about other things since there is no hair between my clittie and the silky feel of the panties! It also doesn't help that the thong has been wedged up my ass all day and is a constant reminder of them each time I walk. Also, each time I looked at my clittie, it made me realize that it belongs to my Goddess. It looks nothing like it did yesterday with no hair and that area of my body now reminds me more of my wife's vagina that I would love to lick and serve.

As instructed by my Goddess, I specially washed my clittie today with a sweet pea bubble bath to give it a feminine scent. I could vaguely smell it each time I went to the restroom today. I don't know if this was part of the plan, but the combination of no hair on my clittie, the feminine scent, the silky thong panties, and my new clittie's name have me feeling a little humiliated, more feminine, nervous, and vulnerable. Probably just the way my Goddess likes me. I am at her complete control and would like it no other way.

I look forward to this training with excitement and fear hoping that I will be able to meet my Goddess' desires and expectations, knowing that she will significantly push my limits and require me to do things I never imagined! While I may not enjoy many of these things at the time, I know that they will make me feel more and more controlled by her; something I want more than anything. I know she wants it too and will surely have more fun than me over the next month. Just the way she and Akasha would want it.

Goddess Renee's Slave